London, 31.03.2010
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I have revisited my past and reconnected with old soul mates. I have lived in the present with new friends and so, for the third and final part of this trilogy, it’s time to get back to the future.
Before I look to what lies ahead though, there is one more blast from the past I need to return to, in order to help you understand just why I am where I am today.
Back in 1997 the brilliant English rock band The Verve released their third and finest album, ‘Urban Hymns’, from which their multi-million selling song ‘Bitter Sweet Symphony’ was taken. In the unforgettable tune, singer Richard Ashcroft refers to the fact that he is “A million different people from one day to the next”.
Finding comfort in sound and relating to a lyric which so accurately describes what I am feeling or thinking is one of those small things I never take for granted. The message and meaning behind this particular song is probably why I am wandering about whilst wondering about what to do about my life.
To quote another classic lyric of our time – I’ll tell you what I want, what I really really want.
I want to be a presenter. I want to work for charity. I want to host a radio show. I want to own a restaurant. I want to write a book. I want to study marine biology. I want to travel the world. I want to settle down. I want to be very rich. I want to be a philanthropist. I want to save the world. I want to save myself. I want to carry on. I want to give it up. I want to keep the old. I want to try the new.
I want to have a partner. I want to be alone.
I want to live in London. I want to reside in Paris. I want to move to Cape Town, Los Angeles or Belize.
Clearly, I need to get a grip.
This indecision and lack of direction needs to be addressed once and for all. I have spent these past few years in love, adrift in a sea of tranquillity and mostly doing things by half. As my brother-in-law Mark so succinctly put it – “Mate, you have been on an adventure of a lifetime with a beautiful girl and the bill has just turned up.”
Time then to stop looking back. Stay calm, stay strong and stay focused on the future.
Thankfully the road immediately up ahead has been mapped out. I will soon return to some sort of stability, as there are two projects already planned. One is a big corporate gig in Cannes, a chance to show what I can do on stage in front of the world’s television and new media executives.
The other is shooting the second series of my beer documentary for Belgian TV, which basically means that I will be paid to drink fine ales whilst meeting and interviewing some fascinating people. Content in Cannes? Blissful in Belgium? Absolutely.
Even though questioning the future beyond that, I do still enjoy my chosen career and feel a strong desire to host good entertainment shows and present exciting, innovative and new ideas to the world. So, after this work is done, and I feel confident in my presenter abilities once again, I intend to visit every agent in London, Paris and maybe even Los Angeles to inform them that Ray Cokes has returned and is available for hire.
Perhaps, because of my recent lack of showbiz presence, they imagine that I have either sunk into obscurity or retired rich to the South of France and am now living in happy hedonism. The truth, I feel, is somewhere between the two.
Thereafter I shall take a short entertainment pause for the summer of soccer. This year, thanks to a superb Italian manager, football may indeed come home with the World Cup and give Broken Britain the cheer it so desperately needs.
Come September I hope to be living where I want to l live, working where I want to work and in love with you, whoever you are and wherever you may be.
It’s a bitter sweet symphony this life but, unlike the song, I can change. Yes I can.
| London, 31. March 2010 |
Ray Cokes |
Indecision | Ray Cokes | Television
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